This is the space where I come to scratch down love letters and life lessons. Like you, I’m on a lifelong quest for more wisdom, beauty, and justice. Like yours, my days are filled with the sweet and the bitter, the holy and hilarious, the mundane and extraordinary—and honestly, when I look close enough, those things are usually one and the same. Here, you’ll find words fueled by copious amounts of coffee and hopefully even more grace.

Currently.

Currently.

Yesterday morning, the sun finally came out of hiding after what felt like 84 years of rainy blur. I volunteer to lead our little church’s peace passing rhythm, sharing what has been growing in me over the last few weeks: the beautiful truth that we who have been marked by Jesus may live freely and without accusation. I remember the story of a son who comes home and a dad who has been waiting for him, and I try to remember that this freedom is for me, too.

I lock my keys in the car—again. I help host a conference and go to yoga and counseling. I battle the fear of missing out and my addiction to glowing screens. I try to be brave. I struggle to receive compliments and to manage my own expectations. I pray—a lot. For an hour and a half over the phone, I try to offer solidarity to a hurting friend. On Tuesday night, I crack a rare joke at house church and laugh a bit too much.

There are questions inviting me to wrestle, nagging decisions, feelings demanding to be felt. I try to sink into myself and love myself, sometimes successfully and sometimes not. My sweet yoga instructor teaches me a new term: abhyasa. She says it means continual, purposeful movement in a singular direction without giving up.

I pray to my own heart, “don’t give up, little one.”

Reading and read:
Liturgy of the Ordinary, by Tish Harrison Warren
The Irresistible Revolution, by Shane Claiborne
The Practice of the Presence of God, by brother Lawrence

On repeat:
My worship playlist, always.

Watching:
Season 4 of Lost

From around the world wide web:
What a handful of celebrated writers say about keeping a diary.
Definitely wanting to visit all the spots on this list.
The wisdom and wonder of Siley Martin.
Sent this pearl from Myrna to my pastor and we both had a good laugh.

Other things currently saving my life:
This Soap & Glory moisturizer.
Deleting Facebook from my phone.
Praying out loud in the car.
GoodReads progress tracker (see my reading list for 2019 here).

A few things I've learned this winter.

A few things I've learned this winter.

Currently.

Currently.