Oh Lord, you have orchestrated all of my beginnings. You've taken account of all my wandering. My hands have wildly flapped open and shut to the mystery you sustain us on. I believe, but help my unbelief. Has there been a more honest prayer? God, meet me in my dark places. Help me put these pieces together to see the masterpiece you designed before the foundation of the world.
Give me grace to take one step at a time, even when I don't yet see where you are leading. Be the lamp unto my feet when the world seems dark and my heart lacks direction. Help me to remember that even when you call me out of my comfort zone, that I am always with the Comforter.
Help me to open my arms and my heart wide to say yes. Help me to run the course of your commandments, knowing that no matter what comes in this life, that you are truly working all things together for my good and for your glory, and may there be no room in my life for fear and anxiety.
Teach me to number my days, and to count all things joy, even when I'm tired and the last thing that I want to do is take on what feels like another burden. Help me to remember that your burden is light. Give me the strength to honor you, even in the hard times. Give me wisdom, give me peace.
Help me to not seek to win the affections of others, but to live each moment in fierce pursuit of your glory, knowing that nothing can separate me from the love that you created me for. You went to the ends of the earth to win my heart and to prove that you are for me. I want to be passionately, desperately seeking your heart.
Help me to go in the strength that I have into a world that is dark and proclaim that you are the hope.
Give me grace to be the light of Christ, and to wash the feet of those who are in pain. Consecrate my life as one of service to your kingdom.
Help me to have love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, and help my thoughts to center around what is true and honorable and pure and lovely and of good repute.
In all things, search me, Lord. Know my ever anxious thoughts, and if there be any offensive way in me, break me and create me clean.
I'm saying yes, inviting you to change my life all over again.
In Jesus' name, so be it.